And damn was it a good show, I now understand why nerds out there were so pissed it got cancelled. The show definitely deserved more than one season and a movie!
Now to start up on Mad Men, shout out to Nicole
I don’t mind hanging out with other people, I enjoy company sometimes, but I’ve realized I really like hanging out alone.
I like going out to expensive dinners and getting coffee with my self.
I like buying new books and comics and reading while I have lunch, or more coffee.
I like driving around aimlessly blasting shitty music.
I like walking around my apartment pantsless enjoying the company my Xbox and my cat.
But most of all I love the fact that there’s no one else for me to impress or irritate.
I just hope eventually I’ll find someone I enjoy doing all of those things with more than myself… But if not that’s fine, cause I’ll be the only person I have to deal with my entire life, so why not enjoy my time with myself…
My bipolar self image was finally content for this evening, all high and mighty and self righteous. Then I see a bunch of stylish tall skinny girls on my dash and hello self doubt creeping up on me again, been doing a good job ignoring you but thanks for paying a visit. -_______-
This years Winter Fresh marked my 4th Winter Fresh working for Fresh Ent. Although I’m a jaded cynic that talks shit about the rave scene all the time, and denies being apart of the scene, I have a lot of love for the Fresh Family. I started working for them when I was 14 and over the years I’ve accumulated many memories. So yeah this is just my random Fresh appreciation post. KBAI!
So this girl from my school that graduated last year is now living in New York, has an awesome internship and is doing shoots and projects that I wish I was doing. I’ve seen this girls work and it’s nothing fantastic, it’s good, really good even, but I wouldn’t say better than mine (Not to size up my own work.) But it’s just showing me that it’s all about perfect timing and networking, and although I can network I’m not sure I have the luck and timing to meet the people I need to to fulfill my dream. I, for the most part, have taken my dream of doing art in a realistic manor, I know it’s unlikely and I have multiple back up plans. But knowing that a girl I know that shares the same dream as me, is in a beautiful city fulfilling that dream while I’m stuck at home kills me. My mom and I have talked about and are currently looking at art schools, but seeing this girl already working and playing the field right out of high school with a portfolio no better than mine is making me re-think art school, and re-think the idea of an internship out of high school. When it comes to photography no one will ever ask “What school did you go to?” they’ll judge you by your portfolio, so why waste time in art school in the first place. There are so many things rushing around my head, but this is what I’m most fearful of, failure…
I’m gonna go to Sam’s now, and eat bacon and watch Mean Girls.
Good bye.
That’s my girl. Been waiting on this bitch, call her, tell her there’s bacon, and she’s on her way.<3
